Be the person that everyone crave your presence. But I don’t wanna be that person anymore. I kept & buried myself in a safe place where only LOVE exist.

yours truly,

~Nekkieslife~

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let’s eat in Xi’an, China

Well not that I guess what happened in Xi’an won’t stay in Xi’an… and this time I would like to share about the food we had eaten … People proposed us to at least try to eat their most known noodles and hot pot. There are plenty of restaurant, + a brief demonstration on how noodles are pulled (hand-pulled noodles). We were stucked in the city We did a lot of walk and ended up in muslim district for lunch. As we were walking along the busy street, street foods are everywhere and annoying motor riders are appearing unexpectedly. Bbq’s, noodles, bread, candies and etc .. staring on those bbq’s have totally given us mouth watering and without hesitation we had chosen and picked 8 sticks of Mutton bbq, one bread and two plate of rice with chicken and the most awaiting lunch been served and then voila we then had a feast. Over above we found the authentic roasted duck just in our hotel.

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This is the local noodles in Xi’an
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A man demonstrating on how noodles are pulled.

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Impressive man with his passion pulling noodles.
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Hot-pot, tomato and green chili soup accompanied with tofu, green salad, chinese cabbage, fish, beef, cilantro and hot-pot sauces.
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bon appétit kids !
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A glimpse of me and my daugther
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Bread
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BBQ lamb

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Walking along the street.
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Authenthic Roasted duck
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Local noodles

 

❤️ LOVE knows no limits to its endurance , no ends to its trust , no fading of its hope , no true love that fades , it can outlast anything , It is the one thing that still stands when all else has fallen.❤️

The Terra Cotta Warriors and horses

Hey Readers,
I just want to share some photos that I had taken during our break , and this time we went to visit the The terra cotta warriors and horses located on the east side of the Mausoleum of Emperor Qinshihuang. The first emperor in Chinese history. 1974 when local farmers were drilling a series of wells in search of water they discovered some pottery fragments and ancient weapons. The head of the village then reported the news to the local goverment and with the goverment approval, explorers began their explorations and excavations. 1979 when the Terra cotta museum was opened to the public. There are 3 Pit, pit 1 the biggest an area of 2,000 meter. Pit 2 & 3 was discovered 1976 and Pit 3 the smallest Pits Today the Terra cotta description «  8 wonder of the world >>. DC5994B0-681A-4167-B539-566B07E5F7A76C09E180-B094-4D4A-B931-4749DD217690902E98E5-D458-4F51-B743-F4E3C5BC1AADF12D87EA-682B-4066-8209-D20425C1FD8B219B590A-000D-4808-A893-C83C27AB9509C402EF9A-7356-4884-8E57-66436D8361FADEBEEF25-D28B-49BD-A1A9-2A13B0DEFAE8FD6A2090-0977-4336-9E86-ED7986D647281533331F-C1A3-4B98-A51F-C5228D86DF35916BCB3B-D2B8-43B0-807C-A6E9D84506910D2EB121-9C55-4947-8A29-71F6D89F82006AEDDBE0-9CD9-434C-91EA-B84D1E55934A3C5FB1AE-51EF-4110-BDDA-C8BC0D97D93E56C161C9-71F6-469A-885F-5E77B949A61A64D70A38-0D17-4B5B-A163-0609B2AB6756EBF65C18-7005-4E98-9B0D-BADBA1465C255F3088EC-E070-4A46-A7D5-F50C8D1007E491EBE615-B906-40CE-AAE1-E4C597974956199D53CC-8FAB-4BD7-AC4C-22273A11089B10206B6A-F738-4806-9934-B9AE2CF9E133

Shanghai, China

Welcome to Shanghai , we flew From Guangzhou – Shanghai had a 2 hours and half in the air and when we landed to the Airport we took our luggage and went straight to find a taxi and woahhhh I haven’t seen any crowd like that ever before, It remind me when we went in India 11 years ago at first I thought there’s only 500 meter long queue to get a taxi but then while we were moving, there are another 6 aisle queue … but I was more than happy because only 7 minutes of waiting we got a taxi… We stayed in Sofitel hotel just in Nanjing Road the center of everything …
I think Shanghai is different from the rest of China. Shanghai has its fascinating skyscrapers and people does their job well , and everything moving fast, in the restaurant you’ll get your meal like a bat out of hell than you expect. The hotel has a friendly service and we were more than satisfied. In Shanghai crowd might be a battle for some. There are too many tourist, and Chinese vacationist. The metro and pedestrians crossing is a real sardines.

Here are some list places we have visited :

Shanghai oriental pearl tower
Former french concession
Shanghai fuzhou road cultural street
The Bund city sculpture
Nanjing lu road
Yu garden
Ocean Aquarium.

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The sky is blue and posters have color pink background , it matches well which regular people can’t see.
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The finance centre
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Nanjing road
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Finance centre
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Two adorable chinese toddlers in their troller
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way to ocean aquarium and orient pearl tower
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The orient pearl
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Bicycles

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French concession

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My focus is starving here, I couldn’t make perfect shot.

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Old town

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Just capturing images without thinking.

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Chinese traditional clothes

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Old town

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View from our Hotel
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Walking around with the crowd. Enjoying the cool weather.
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Tourist train in Nangjing lu road
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Myself and my daugther

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what it’s like to cross in Shanghai pedestrian crossing.

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Pedestrian crossing
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The orient pearl tower at night.
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The bund.

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The Bund at night
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Spectacular lights view at night

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The Bund

Isabel Granada

2AAB66D6-FC77-46C5-B6B1-5EF69E095A0C.jpegThe most beautiful people you’ll ever meet aren’t always the ones who catch your eyes first. The most beautiful are the ones that can never be figured out. The one you could talk with for many hours and still have a million things to ask. The people who have beautiful mind, lovely and special, you can’t help but LOVE them.

Rest in Peace Isabel Granada …You’ll always be remembered.

Meringue

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9FF9D902-E32D-4670-AE81-52D86E6801DEI have been cooking and eating more lately. Thanks God it’s weekend and I can now indulge myself going in hair salon and have physical theraphy. I recently joined yoga session and I will continue doing it. I did loved it and the yoga teacher was really awesome. It is tough for me to live to not go for cardio because each time I have terrible headache. I feel petrified because I am not getting any younger anymore. When I feel bored I always end up in the kitchen , I think I love my kitchen than my friends (kidding aside) this time I made Meringue. I would really love to share my meringue recipe.

Ingredients :

6 egg whites
200 grams confectioner sugar
2 drops lemon
1 pinch salt
2 drops liquid food coloring

Fridge the egg whites for 15 minutes

Preheat the oven 120 degree

Pour the egg whites in a metal bowl mixer

Whipped the egg whites using hand mixer and set in a rapid beat. Whisk 2 drops of lemon and pinch salt.

mix well till it turned foam.

devide the confectioner into 3 and add gradually with the swifter.

continuously mix until consistent is right.

Transfer the mixture to a large pastry bag. Pipe the meringue out onto the prepared baking sheet using a large tip or star tip. Or use tablespoon.

Place inside the oven for 1 hour , remember to open the oven from time to time to let the heat out and let the air comes in, a very good method to have perfect authentic french meringue.

When it’s done let it cool completely before storing.

so, here’s my perfect authentic french meringue.

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Pandesal

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Pandesal is a Filipino bread most known for all of time. The name Pan de sal comes from the spanish literally means bread of salt. Pandesal has a slight sweet taste. My family loves to eat pandesal all through out the day. In the Philippines you can simply dip in a hot coffee or hot chocolate or fill anything that you desire, jams , peanut butter , nutella, margarine, cheese and even sardines … anything that you want, I myself love pandesal with foie gras sounds odd but I love it ! ( French would hate seeing me eating foie gras with slight sweet bread ).

Thanks to my kitchen-aid Kenwood, baking is a lot easier and quicker.

Ingredients :

• 3 cups bread flour
• 1 and 1/2 cups all purpose flour
• 1/2 cups white sugar
• 1 pouch yeast
• 3 egg yolks
• 3/4 cup milk
• 1/2 cup melted butter
• 1/2 cup water
• extra flour for kneading

Directions how to bake pandesal with mixer/kneader :

• Dissolve yeast and 1 tsp sugar stir to dissolves and let stand for 10 minutes.
• Place all the dried ingredients including yeast into a bowl and mix until all ingredients are well combined. Continue mixing until it formed dough.
• Remove the dough and transfer to oiled bowl and cover with damp cloth and let it rise for 1 hour.
• Devide the dough and rolled and cut each log into equal oval pieces.
• Lightly greased each bread and coat with bread crumbs.
• Place each bread flat side down in a baking tray
• preheat the oven 180 degrees for 30 minutes.
• Bake for 20 minutes
• Serve hot or cold and Bon àppetit !

If you plan to keep the pandesal longer. You can freeze all them up and take it out whenever you want and simply toast them in a toaster or heat them up inside the oven.

Chocolate cake

522DB91A-8AFC-459C-A8DC-51842AE52546I got a call from my dear friend, and she asked me for some help to bake a cake  … without hesitation , I accepted her request with all my heart… It is always a good feeling to make someone happy.

My chocolate cake recipe :

Ingredients :

• 200 grams [ Nestle or Barry ] black chocolate bar
• 200 grams butter
• 1 teaspoon coffee powder
• 1 pinch salt
• 1 tablespoon water
• 6 eggs
• 200 grams sugar
• 100 grams flour

Toppings :

• 200 grams [ Nestle or Barry ] black chocolate bar
• Almonds
• artificial arome sugar

Directions :

• Preheat the oven 200 degrees

• In a pan melt the butter and chocolate add the coffee and 1 tablespoon water, set aside.

• Prepare two bowl , seperate the egg whites from the yolks.

• Whip the egg whites until it turned foam and add pinch of salt. Put aside.

• Stir sugar and egg yolks till it get white and add the flour with swifter and blend it well, add the melted chocolate and butter gently mix and add the egg foam and gently stir all together.

• Prepare the cake mold and butter all through.

• Pour the batter into the mold and and bake for 1 hour.

• Let it cool and remove the cake from the mold and transfer in a cake plate.

• Prepare the toppings , Melt the chocolate and spread it all over the baked cake and whisk the almonds on top.

• serve and enjoy!

 

Take me to church

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Hozier

I was inside the plane when I came across to see and watched the documentary about ”Sergei Polunin “ I am a frustrated classic listener, the older I get the more I love classical music and royal ballet dance. I remember at my young age I used to watched Ukrainian Royal ballet dance on TV. It’s been a long time I have not watched ballet dance or even going in theaters or Opera to attend and see classical concert. The last concert I had attented was in Arsenal Metz in France. It was the most beautiful concert I have ever seen in my whole entire life, and my VIP tickets was given free from a very good friend of mine. That was year 2010.
I couldn’t remember when was the exact year when Sergei Polunin made a video titled « take me to church » sang by Hozier and first time I heard and seen through facebook year 2013. First time I heard the song I already love it even before I understood what it meant.
I would really love to share the lyrics and I want to understand, that there is something profound about the song.
Take me to church – sang by Hozier. Hozier is an Irish musician, singer and a song writer. He was known in his best piece titled -take me to church-. I think Hozier is a brilliant person.

The lyrics goes like this :

Take me to church by Hozier

My lover’s got humour
She’s the giggle at a funeral
Knows everybody’s disapproval
I should’ve worshipped her sooner
If the heavens ever did speak
She’s the last true mouthpiece
Every Sunday’s getting more bleak
A fresh poison each week
“We were born sick”
You heard them say it
My church offers no absolutes
She tells me, “Worship in the bedroom”
The only heaven I’ll be sent to
Is when I’m alone with you
I was born sick, but I love it
Command me to be well
A-amen, amen, amen

Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins, so you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life

Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins, so you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life

If I’m a pagan of the good times
My lover’s the sunlight
To keep the Goddess on my side
She demands a sacrifice
Drain the whole sea
Get something shiny
Something meaty for the main course
That’s a fine-looking high horse
What you got in the stable?
We’ve a lot of starving faithful
That looks tasty
That looks plenty
This is hungry work

Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins, so you can sharpen your knife
Offer me my deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins, so you can sharpen your knife
Offer me my deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life

No masters or kings when the ritual begins
There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin
In the madness and soil of that sad earthly scene
Only then I am human
Only then I am clean
Oh, oh, amen, amen, amen

Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins, and you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins, and you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life

So there is it …. I admit that I am not really good in expressing my thoughts and feelings. It just that , The lyrics makes me think…. it’s amazingly written.

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Sergei Polunin

 

Hailing Island, China

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Along the bumpy highway, we had horrific experienced and I prefer not to share it, I’d rather keep it for myself. ( oh It is hell ).

We stayed 5 days in Hailing Island Crowne Plaza. The Hotel and resort is pretty nice far away from the hassle and busy cities. The hotel is tranquil and new. I think it was constructed 4 years ago. Going there was a real escaped for us.

Upon arrival, Our room ( seaside view ) wasn’t prepared and the reception kindly inquired us to wait and proposed to take our lunch. And so we did, we devoured our lunch at the chinese restaurant , The food is excellent , finely cooked and well presented but quiet expensive.

The hotel has a private beach. It is unusual for me to see tones of life vest , People swim with the life vest which I found really strange and shocked. I have never been in any beach here in China. Wearing life vest is a must when swimming at the beach. The waves are quiet strong and windy, rough sand and gray water. Inside my head, I would rather go in the Philippines next time.

We mostly spent our time at the pool… they do not have towels, so better get them at the gym or bring your own towels which most of the guest do. There is a bar in front of the beach you can have and order your drinks. You will also see some people appreciating water activities like parachute , kites, and many more.

Breakfast and buffet diner happens at the Aqua restaurant and be happy they have a la carte for people like us, who stick to eat less food. I feel pity to the chef he got lot of works.

One night, we tried to eat barbecues at the hot pot restaurant nearby the beach besides the pool area. We liked the food, barbecues and hot pot, meats and sea foods, vegetables, noodles , dessert , fruits , drinks oh it was paradise for all the eaters and with perfect service.

At the lobby, there is a lounge, cozy coffee bar, you can sit or lay on the couch , read or have a drink of coffee or tea as well eat a slice of cake up to your choice. They also have a game Area for small children. During the night there are two musician they start to play music at 8 pm till midnight. We really had so much fun, eating, drinking and listening to their music.

4th day the weather wasn’t friendly, thankfully they have indoors swimming area and I fancied the Spa and longing to have some massage but I am tigthing my belt, the price is out of my budget ( ouch ! ) I want to save for something valuable matter. In some such way I still know how to limit my expenses. I deteste burning cards.

All we did was just eating, swimming, gained some kilos. Seeing my children growing …….! Oh time flies … We really had a wonderful stayed.

5th day, all luggages are packed and locked… around 4 pm we bid goodbye to the place and vacation is over and we were back to life.

I don’t 🤔think of going back in Yangjiang or Hailing Island.

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Two years has gone,
and still feels like yesterday.

Wound that never healed,
Blood that keeps flowing.

Living imperfectly,
Wondering what future may bring.

Coffee without sugar,
all my doubts won’t leave me.

Each of my days have nights,
Each yesterday have tomorrow.

and If tomorrow never comes,
I won’t know it.

At night

After diner, what is the next thing do you do ? Oh well for me, I want to sit on the couch and kick back but oh No ! I am oblige to clear up the table and it’s a pity we do not have dishwasher here in China, we literally tighting the belt to have one. But anyway, Thanks to my Mom I am not a laid person. I habitually maintain the house tidy and clean which is fun for me… but of course, I still allowed messes days because I am only human and it is impossible to keep our place neat with two kids .

Sitting on the couch with my husband routinely every night is one of my favorite scene for the two of us… hmm what most couple do at night ? and how would you like to spent your night with the most loving person in your life ? Did it ever cross in your mind ? … well yes for me, watching tv while eating popcorn and drink coca cola ? nah wait, my husband is a French guy and admit it or not , French yes French they never eat after meal unless they are starving hahaha really far from my culture. We Filipinos loves to eat, I myself Loves food tripping … Oh alright end ! So where am I ? Lets continue , aside from watching tv , reading books on the bed and additional ? Oh sometimes I run for 30 minutes before bed mmmm it’s a rarely thing that I work for before bed. Lets go back to my subject, sitting besides my man makes me feel so canonized and sentinelled like a Queen with her King… wanting that I live in Versailles Castle yeah you’ve heard it! (lol)… from time to time we would have a little conversation and making mementos that we will remember for all of our life.

There are some nights that I love to look up to the sky and wish to see shooting star. It’s been ages I haven’t seen shooting star , As far as I remember that was year 2000 when I last seen shooting star and it lasted a second just a blink and gone!… and of course I made some wished which some of them came true…… blah blah blah ……. I love stars , the moon , clouds, the sound of the night … And I would thank GOD for everything, for the life, how powerful HE is with everything that He created in this world. God is beyond amazing.

Nights are passing by swiftly and tomorrow is a new day and then it goes and on and on … and , and , and… and I wish there is an everlasting life.

I always love to think how we’ve met and how we held each other arms for the first time. Life is really too short to be unkind and unhappy So better make the most of it ! Love your spouse the most !

I hope you realise

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Heath Ledger

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It’s 8:30 o’clock right now and here I go again while having my breakfast !!!  Oh my God ! Guess who was in my dream last night …. Yeah it’s Heath Ledger

All I can remember that I was in a big group of people and Heath Ledger was interrogating each people inside of a big place … and When he pointed his finger at me … He asked me : What do you want to do in your Life ? and without thinking and without fear I answered : Singer ! … and then he was amazed as I answered him gracefully without hesitation, I guess I responded differently and he continued talking and asking question, He said hmmmm that’s very interesting … why would you choose this Job ? Do you look around you ? …. and Then CuT !!!! suddenly I opened my eyes and Huh everything is just a dream ….

I don’t have any Idea why Heath ledger was in my dream and I can not believe I dreamt of HIM …. It’s been too long (2008) when he passed away and I never seen or watch any movie of Him and It is so surprising that he was in my dream and I don’t really know what his message means ….. and why Heath Ledger ?

Mon temps seul

Regle # 1 :  N’attendez jamais à rien à personne.

Regle # 2 : Acceptez le fait que vous ne pouvez pas plaire à tout le monde.

Regle # 3 : Vivre ta vie de la façons tu veux.

Règle # 4 : ne dites pas de mal sur les gens.

Regle # 5 : Ignorez des situations immature.

Je n’ai pas vraiment croisé beaucoup de personne qui me comprennent, je ne crois pas en fabrication d’amis pour la commodité. J’ai la capacité par des intentions des gens et des motifs. Je n’aime pas tout le monde et Je n’ai pas besoin tout le monde pour m’aimer.  Je suis un penseur qui réfléchit à mon but. Je suis une vieille âme essayant d’envisager la signification de chaque action et le but sous-jacent de ma vie. Je passe beaucoup de temps dans ma propre entreprise. Je préfère travailler seul et garder quelques amis. Je travaille seul – à la distraction exempte. J’ai beaucoup de connaissances mais je préférerais restent consacré à un groupe d’amis fidèles. Dans quelques situations Nous avons le droit d’être fâchés mais nous devrions toujours nous garder en échec. Les gens pourraient nous blesser mais ce n’est pas assez de raison d’aussi couler à leur niveau…. Je dois toujours me rajeunir en dépensant quelque temps solitaire de temps en temps. J’aime ignorer des situations immature et Je m’en veux parce que je peux facilement pardonner.

Unpleasant message

What would you do when someone sent you an unpleasant text or message ?
Well, It happened to me.
but I know it is part of human nature and I believe that some people are just careless. People may say everything they want because they feel very good about it. As much as possible, I don’t let myself get affected especially if that person is not that really important in my life. And yes, believe it or not I have ability reading people, their ulterior motives can’t scape from me. If they think they can fool me well they are very wrong. In the first place, I already know and expected it , I already know their ulterior motives , wether it is genuine or not. Just because someone is showing you how nice they are doesn’t mean You have to be nice to them. True colors will always show. That is why I never expect anything , good or bad from anyone.
Yes you can say anything to anyone. But words are just words and in the end of the day they will remain words. When someone is trying to bring you down with their hurtful words don’t ever stoop to their level. In some called situations we have the right to be angry. But we should always keep ourselves in check. People might hurt us but that isn’t enough reason to also sink to their level and hurt people back. Always follow your heart and don’t give them a chance to destroy your day because what you allow will always continue. Live your life , some people will always find something negative to say and that is alright. Life is really too short to be controlled by anybody. I just want to thank them really for I am the center of their life. I don’t worry about what other may think and say. I am free and I am happy.

There is a saying and it goes something like this :

Answer not a fool according to his folly, lest thou also be like unto him In other words Never argue with an IDIOT.

À mon ami

Je vais vraiment manquer mon ami. Même si pour un temps très court et limite. Une chose est sûre, elle va vraiment me manquer. elle a été loyale et honnête ami à moi et nous nous respectons et nous nous respectons mutuellement en ce qui concerne les différences. Nous comprenons facilement et acceptons les un les autres. La vie était vraiment facile et absolument belle avec elle. même par mes jours occupés, mon temps seul, des priorités dans la vie, elle me serait toujours et elle m’a jamais interrogée, elle me connaît mes limites personnelles. On ne se concentre que sur ce qui compte vraiment. On a fait de super souvenirs ensemble et elle ne jamais quitte, jamais abandonnée et elle a été la pour moi et m’a donné le meilleur sans rien attendre en retour et c’est pourquoi je l’aime de tout mon coeur. L’amitié existe en elle et elle mérite et mérite mon temps et mon attention. Les gens sincères sont vraiment difficiles à trouver et a croire que je ne le cherche plus mais elle m’a montré qu’elle est l’une des sortes une sortes de personnes que je veux passer mon temps avec. Le moment est venu c’est triste de la voir partir. Je ne sais pas ce que l’avenir peut apporter mais je sais pour sûr je la verrai surement en France.

Vigan

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It wasn’t in my plan going home during rainy seasons in the Philippines. But I bugged out home for my health issues. Spent 3 weeks, in and out in the hospital. In my head I already had planned going in Vigan, Ilocos sur.

It was then Wednesday morning, Woke up at 7 am and we were excited. My mom was happy when we told her that we were going to bring her in Vigan. Vigan is located on the western coast island of Luzon. Vigan street has a unique architecture it is one of surviving Philippine historic cities, dating back to the 16th century.

We left around 7 o’clock in the morning. The road is long and quiet pretty far. While on our way, we paused by to have our breakfast at Leeza’s Restaurant they have the best filipino buffet, cheap price, they won’t let you down because the food is delicious, well presented buffet and spacious place. Toilet and washroom are clean.

It was lunch when we reached the town of Vigan. It took us 5 hrs drive from Baguio … we were dehydrated and starving. People offered us to eat ( Sinanglao ) It is a famous dish Vigan delicacy, It is a soup dish and has a bit sour taste and a hint of bitterness nearly similar to (Pinapaitan.)Don’t be confused with the two , sinanglao is cooked with meat beef and pinapaitan is meat goat.

The weather condition was so hot and sunny … which made us feel uncomfortable. Kids outrun in mc donalds and bought sundae ice cream.

After we had taken our lunch, We straightly quitted to the hotel to drop by all our things lugguge and snatched some minutes of nap.

We then commenced our walk, took pictures everywhere, every corner … We had seen so many things , souvenir shops , Kalesa ~ it’s a horse drawn calash ,it was introduced by spanish colonizer during 18th century. You will rarely see now a days and only used in the streets tourist areas of old cities and in some rural areas. There are several ice cream man, you must at least try their sorbetes it is creamy and tasty. Buildings are well preserved. The street is almost empty, I guess 500 meters long and 3 – 4 blocks. There are less visitors during week days. People are well mannered and friendly. After An hours , we headed to Baluarte to see their famous zoo and museum.

Back to Vigan,  the night is young and we are free hahaha joke ! Someone told us that there are two light show and we went off and watched the dancing fountain show apparently scheduled every night at 7:30 pm lasting 30 minutes each show.

The next day, the sky is clear and blue what a perfect day for us… Before anything else, my parents bought Bagnet ~ I have no idea what it is ? Bagnet ~ it is actually deep fried pork belly ( lechon kawali in Tagalog ) I am not actually fun of it, seeing bagnet I felt I would have heart attack. Instead, I bought salty longganisa garlic flavored ( longganisa is a popular sausage in the Philippines traditionally made from grounded meat and it has a several flavors. ) Don’t forget to bring cooler box with you, there are ice cube seller nearby if you want to buy some fresh meat. We then visited Bantay watchtower & St Augustine church. Inside the Bantay tower there is a man , he offered us to take some beautiful photos and he is indeed good in photography. I think he is one of the care-taker of the Bell tower He shared the story of the place and we then happily left and gave him some extra tip in return. And of course don’t miss RG Jar factory ~ Pot shop where they briefly shown us on how pots are made. We came to see and bought souvenirs in Marsha’s delicacies shop – a great shop when buying gifts. My brother bought some royal bibingka they said you shouldn’t miss out buying royal bibingka when visiting Vigan. ( bibingka is a type of rice cake. ) Time has come to end our visit , as we were driving back home , we intentionally then stopped in Nuestra Senora de la Asuncion Church and as usual took some pictures… We honestly missed some other places like the old house of the late President Marcos and many more … but sadly we runned out of time… but we happily managed to captured some beautiful views along the sea and before we knew it we were back home safely.

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If I could

If ever I could find a friend who truly loved me. A friend who loved me just as much as I loved them. That would take to make me Happy and spend the rest of my day with them. But sometimes, good things don’t last, well, they seemed seldom in my life. I was looking for acceptance in all the wrong people and places. But I am not desperate, In fact I love being Isolated. I began to understand I was not like anyone else … I am different …. IMG_5477

Japan

Japan is a perfect and a peaceful country. Japan and its people are so perfect. The food, the fashion , the lifestyle, everything is luxurious and everything is new to me. Going there felt like going in another Universe It is another world for me. Japan is heaven!

Here are the etenirary that we made during our trip in Japan. We bought the JR pass through the internet , and when we arrived Tokyo airport we went to the train station and got our JR Pass and it’s worth to buy and have it , you can go whenever and wherever you want to go anywhere in Japan.

Oh so this is our First time to fly in Japan airline oh my god I already felt like HOME! The crews were so kind, polite and it is so neat and clean, services wow oh wow perfect !

1-3 days we explored the city of Tokyo. Hey ! at the airport as soon as we landed, The first thing I noticed ~ Toilettes are damn awesome !!!!

4th day we went to see the magnificent view of the famous mount FUJI.

5th day we headed out to KYOTO through Kinsanken train (bullet train). We decided to stay there 8 days. There are a lot of things to do, uncountable places to go and so many amazing things to see. Days are long and it’s just wonderful! There is a lot of tourist as well. Some tourist are wearing a kimono’s clothes and I find that they wore it elegantly. There are plenty of choices when it comes to foods. We tried and experience the Fire ramen ! and the kobe-beef hot pot. Of course the sushi’s , You must reserve a table if you want to experience the traditional Japanese restaurant. There are a lot of choices and There is no need to worry even when you are on your diet because Japanese food are so healthy. Everything are well presented, neat and clean. We watched the kimono show somewhere in the street of Gion. We witnessed the events and had our Japanese Tea afternoon with a beautiful Japanese Garden.

Other places that we’ve been ~ Osaka, Kobe, Himeji , Nara , Hiroshima , Miyajima.

In Kobe, I will never forget the Beef-kobe ! it is certainly the best beef that I have ever eaten in my whole entire life ! The beef is amazingly Tender. We had our private chef for the night The chefs cooked the meat in front of us and he ensures that the meat will stay juicy. If I am not mistaken it’s teppanyaki style. It’s pricey but we gave it a try for once in our life !

In Himeji, there is a big white castle. They called it Himeji Castle, the castle has a beautiful garden but different entrance so we had finished our visit inside the castle then we continued walking till we reached the exit and went straight away to the garden and we had seen its beautiful garden, It is well maintained and again another astonishing place.

Hiroshima – going there was quiet emotional for me … I can’t explain but my heart was devastated……

Nara – you’ll see temples and big buda’s and deers around the park.

Osaka – yeah what can I say !!!! Shop till you get drop !

Miyajima Island ~ We took the JR ferry it is free if you have JR pass you can ride the ferry without payments ~ we were so glad because we went there and another beautiful memories our eyes were filled with amazing things….

Alright for now, I can’t think of anything … My brain is ain’t friendly to tell everything but my heart filled with joy and laughter! We absolutely made a wonderful memories.

We spent our last 2 days back in Tokyo and we went to see and visited my beloved Auntie.

Japan offers beyond what normally I see. We truly enjoyed and had a blast !

Thinking of going back home seems so unreal …it’s a world that seems so far away from this perfect patch of land … but we left with our stories.

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I stopped searching for the answers

Few things in life happen without a reason, sometimes I wondered why the world seemed so unfair. I stopped searching for the answers. I’d sit for hours and think of nothing. I love being lost in silent. Memories can be deceptive. The things that I didn’t know now I have begun to understand. The more I learned the more I understand. The journey I endured not only has taught me precious mysteries about one another. It’s too painful to think about the bad times I had. I forced to think I had found my way. I fell and picked myself up. I had managed to create a fuller , beautiful atmosphere , Happy life for myself.

I change

There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you or reminded of you . The time you made me cry, the time you made me feel so worthless, You took away my pride… and you’ve asked me how I am ? I said, I was okey though I was hurting … If we will ever see each other again , I would still be here but I don’t promise I’ll be the same person that you used to know ….

Beijing, China

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These photos taken last August 2016. China is so rich in History. There are many things you’ll see and do … when you go or planning a visit to Beijing do not forget to go and visit the Forbiden city, Temple of heaven, Lama temple, Birds nest in the olympic stadium, Behai park, Park of prince gong, there are many huitongs streets where you’ll find ancient street and sellers. Of course the famous Great wall don’t miss it! You can also watch Chinese acrobatic during the night, there are several famous theatre in Beijing. And you’ll have a whole day walk in the Summer palace park and there are so much more places and many things to mention but yeah I can’t remember everything …. all I remember is that Beijing is an amazing place ……

Guismo

IMG_1297IMG_1271Meet our dog, his name is Guismo. He was born in the region of lorraine in France on November 11, 2011. It was not planned when we got Guismo. One day, me and my husband went to a dogs expositions. While walking around and enjoying our time watching and touching all breeds of puppies… There was a big park for golden retriever and one of them was Guismo , he was the unique one among all the puppies with his real golden brown color and he was just there, he stared to us for a long minutes and saying Hi to us waving his tail  … all the puppies turned their back except Guismo he still there and that’s the moment I felt I wanted to take him home …. So without any hesitations we had taken guismo at home …. He is our youngest baby. My kids were the happiest kids in the whole wide world when we got Guismo. Having Guismo in our lives and in our home is one of the best thing that ever happened in our lives. Guismo loves us purely more than anyone could ever do.

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IMG_7295I am very careful in everything I think, I do and say. Practice is a lifetime learning, I practiced and still practicing to talk less but I do observe enormously But of course I still know when to open my mouth….. especially to other’s people children. You know, It’s takes a village to discipline other’s children. Kids are growing and changing, their body and mind. I believe that childrens are children and I let them live freely. I am a person who doesn’t give opinions unless asked for. I think millions times before reacting into such thing or jumping in a conclusion and it doesn’t mean I am jumping away. We can control ourselves and may appear cool, nice, and pleasant in a normal situation, but when facing an uncalled situation, with a situation that caught us by surprise and how we reacted at the moment, I do believe personally, in my own opinion, that is our real self , our real character, who we really are inside. I am far from perfection but I don’t need to like everyone and I don’t need to be liked by everyone. And I hate to admit that I don’t like all people, So why would I love all childrens ? Let me tell you, One day, I am surprised about my son reaction when he faced such uncalled situation on how he reacted smoothly and how to defended his self with an Adult person. My son is a grown up person and I am proud of him , though he’s grown up I still believe that he still need my guidance. I understand my son, he really choose his friends. and I can’t do anything about it. Even some parents are begging to get some get-together. There were years I exposed my kids with different and mix people. And now they are wise enough to choose whatever atmosphere they want. I really do have to choose people, people who lift each other up , inspires each other , people that I know that are compassionates, kind and humble. People who make you feel loved. I am not a fixer or saviour. I would rather help than judging. I do believe that everything starts at home. There will always be an Up’s and down. As much as I can, I prioritize healthy relationship with my children. So when you think that something is going wrong, never expect any comments from me. It takes truth investigation before you get my help, comments and automatically Immature situation will be IGNORED. As a mother there are days that I know everything and there are days I know nothing. There is nothing wrong when you mind your own bussiness. Minding your own bussiness doesn’t mean you’re uncaring person.

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I need to be Me

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The reason

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I truly believe, I found someone who completed and turned my world around. I tell him things that I have never shared with anyone and We share hopes for the future.I have many dreams that never come true, goals that were never achieved and many disappointments that life has thrown me. When something wonderful happens, I can’t wait to tell him about it. I cry with him when I am hurting or laugh when I make myself a fool. He never hurt my feelings or make me feel like I am not good enough, but rather He help me build myself up and show me the things about myself that make me feel so special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure. I can be myself and not worry about what he will think of me because he loves me for who I am. I open my heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening my heart, I experience the true love and real joy that I never dreamed possible. And I find strength in knowing I have a husband and a soul mate who will remain loyal till the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. He is the reason of my existence. He saved me from the fall. I am truly blessed that God has given me so much more than I deserve.

Bohol, Philippines

From port of Cebu We had taken the ferry to Bohol and it took us 2 hours. We made one day tour. Unfortunately our ferry has been delayed for hours. It happen everyday. So if you are planning a trip to Bohol I propose you must take 3 – 4 days so you will enjoy the Island including their Beautiful beaches. The 3 landmark of Bohol ~ Chocolate hills which has an enchanting views , Tarsiers, and the River cruise with filipino buffet in Loboc river. The loboc river ~ the cleanest river  I have ever seen in the Philippines And there are more things and places to see like,The man-made forest~ Thousands of mahogany trees were planted during the 70´s if I am not mistaken. The baclayon church & museum. Blood compact site in Tagbilaran and many others optional tours ~ butterflies sanctuary, python viewing, Loay local industries… It is forbidden to cut trees and people aren’t allowed to hunt animals… as the animals does not belongs to the cage but to humans… Throwing your trash everywhere is also probihited. Bohol is really environmentally friendly. I am very impressed that Bohol is well protected by the goverments and the people themselves. How I wish the whole land of the Philippines will be the same like Bohol , it is really clean and green , everything is natural… Going there brings me back to my childhood when the water and the forest were still clean were you just roll around on the ground and wash your clothes in the clean river. And in Bohol you will also experience the lifestyle of the Filipinos way back ~ away from the civilization. All over I would highly recommend Bohol to all natures lovers …. I shall return ….

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Health

For me, health is wealth. Therefore I must take care of my health. I am not getting any younger anymore. Time and life is unpredictable.
I started to change my bad habits 3 years ago.
Keeping my weight at a healthy level is never easy. But I was motivated and determined to eliminate all the negative influences in my life, foods, drinks, things and people. I started to value myself and my family. I also learned how to deal with stress. Setting a realistic goal wasn’t that easy. I sleep well, eat healthy foods and regular exercise. I am happy physically and mentally.

Philippines

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Forever Friends

The beach …

The cocktails …

The swimsuits …

The kitchen …

The cigarettes …

The roads …

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Our 20’s …

The best days of my life ……….

 

I will always miss you and love you my dear friend rochelle garniel

 

 

 

 

 

 

Gone forever

When I think of you …

I see nothing but Love …

How could I forget you …

I just can’t stop loving you …

but time and distance erased it all …

Everything is gone …

and now I just live with it …